what I lost.
At first, i was sad to see the show end because I feel as if some of my best friends died. Cause, you know they all were dead at the end, right? Spoiler alert. But as I thought about it I slowly realized that all of my best friends are tv characters. Let me say that again, all of my best friends are tv characters. When Captain Kirk died in Generations, I cried; when Dumpledore died, I cried; when Sara and Chuck got together, I cried; when Dawn and Tim finally kissed, I cried; when Claire had her baby (again), I cried (again). Tv characters become my family, my friends, my life; when they're sad, I'm sad; when they're happy, I'm happy.
I could go on and on about what this means for me and what this says about me, but I already know the answers to those questions and to repeat them to myself would be; redundant. I already know that my inability to form stable, meaningful relationships with real people is what drives me to my apartment and urges me to turn on my tv. I already know that to have a relationship with a tv character is such an easy thing; that they are there when you want them, can be left behind without regard when I want and requires no work from me but to turn on the tv. Believe me, I know.
I may have lost something I love last night, but I feel as if I've found another piece of myself.
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